Thickener

a few months ago, I was seeking out a way to thicken soups/gravies. I ran up on one by accident.  I bought this stuff called coconut butter.  I thought I could use it like coconut oil.  When i put it in the skillet it burned like a roux.  So, today when I was making tomato soup, I decided to put a couple of tablespoons in the blender with the soup.  When I put it back on the stove, the soup thickened very nicely. It wasn't as runny as it has been in the past. Yippee, I can have gravy. Probably won't make it that much, but its nice to know there is a paleo gravy/sauce.

Journaling what I eat

So, I get on the scale and I'm back in the 240s . . . after getting down to 236.  How could I have gained so much weight so quickly?  I've really been watching what I eat and my thanksgiving was pretty paleo except for the sweet potato pie.  I think it has something to do with my lack of movement in combination with poor eating for the past few days.

To be honest, the days at the beginning of this week were the worst:  I went out for sushi (i got a kind with cream cheese, rice & deep fried)  I think that this is one of the major roots of the weight gain.   And I had Indian food with BFF but I didn't have rice, but I'm sure the palek had cream.   Also, I've been terribly gassy since eating poorly this week.  I wish it go away.  After this weekend, its strict strict strick paleo until Christmas break.  Doesn't look like I'll reach my Christmas goal--to be in the 220s.  I had planned on buying on a new & fitting outfit for NewYears.   *sigh*

I need to journal what I eat whether I want to or not, so that I can notice trends in my eating & weight gain. This is just a little upsetting.  But its my fault, I went crazy this week.  I need to make sure I live the lifestyle, not the addiction to food.

A bad day of eating

I was craving sugar today and I felt all jittery (i knew it was PMS).  I got a package of Reese PB cups from the the vending machine after lunch today.  I ate one and gave the other to a co-worker.  It satisfied the craving.  After school, I headed to Whole Foods for a couple bars of 73% cocoa chocolate bars.  Its the only way I'll survive the week.

Breakfast: none

Lunch:  pot roast, raw spinach, 1 peanut butter cup

Dinner:  French onion soup, 5 slices of bacon, 5 slices of london broil, 1/2 bar of 73% chocolate, pecans

For some strange reason, I like bacon, right now.  When I started Paleo back in June, I couldn't stand bacon or sausage--still can't stand sausage.  But after buying and trying the "farm" bacon, I like it.  Its like the pork has a different taste.  Maybe its because the pigs are eating better food--just loving the bacon from the deli case.

I know i'm not eating enough. . . but i'm not hungry. This happens around cycle time. . . i just want chocolate and sleep.   Off to sleep I go!

Day 6 of Round 3

Breakfast:  bacon and orange

Lunch:  crockpot chicken and french onion soup, dark chocolate

Dinner:  chicken curry coflouti  (first time making it.  I liked the flavors, but it fell after being out of the oven.  It felt more like egg caserole.  I added mushrooms and carmelized onions to the dish.  Maybe thats why it fell. I read something about people using the batter for desert and I might do it with some fresh berries.  I did LOVE the taste of the butter. Its the first time, I've had any since going Paleo.

i'm still not eating enough, but today, I just didn't feel like it.

Day 5 of Round 3

Breakfast:  7 slices of bacon, 1/2 can coconut milk, banana

Lunch:  civiche (i went out to a mexican place with my friend, it was the only thing on the menu i felt comfortable eating.  But there must have been an acid/preservative in it b/c afterward, I had a little indigestion.  Didn't have any chips or anything)

Dinner:  Bok Choy with Chicken sausage, raw spinach, beef filet

I'll probably have a snack later tonight.  I know i haven't eaten enough.

Yesterday, I didn't eat alot b/c it was pretty crazy day.  However, I went to dinner with my friend and had a salad with scharwma on it.  It was really good.  During the movie I nibbled on some dark chocolate and almonds, I put in my purse

Day 3 of Round 3

Lunch:  spinach, chicken sausage, tomato soup, handful of almonds

Dinner:  tomato soup, braised cabbage, raw spinach, spaghetti squash, ny strip

I feel fine after today's dinner.  I stopped by whole foods and got some cans of REAL coconut milk and bananas.  If i'm hungry later this evening.  I'll blend the two with a little ice and cinnamon.

day 2 of Round 3

Breakfast: none

Lunch:  handful of dried strawberries & bananas, 100cal pack of dry almonds, tomato soup, salad greens topped w/bellpeppers

Dinner:  spaghetti squash, braised cabbage, raw spinach, beef filet

After dinner, I was fidgety  and my skin was crawling.  I desperately wanted something sweet or something more to eat.  I don't know how I survived the withdrawal the first time.  I don't know AT. ALL.  I feel like screaming!!!    I had 1 can of "light" coconut milk left.  I blend it with some ice and cinnamon.  I throw in an apple that is starting to go bad.  I hope this soothes my jitters.  I can TASTE the different between "light" and real coconut milk. It taste like water.  I guess I need to get online and order a new box.